cee: awareness seems to be related to this particular body-mind.
nome: always?
are you sure of that?
did you ever have a moment anytime in your whole life when the body was not a focal point, something of which you were aware? did you ever have an experience, moment, anything like that, where the body was not a factor?
cee: ( talking about deep sleep) yes, but i don't remember it, i don't know i was there, and so it's hard to know that it was a moment of awareness, because there was no one to notice .
nome: in any moment, even this moment, are you aware of the entirety of the body? like every single cell in it, and the nucleus of each cell and the wall of each cell and each organ and each system and their interaction and the thousand thousand enzymes and their chemical reactions?
are you aware of that?
cee: (thinks)
nome: no,
well that seems normal, i never met anybody who was.
so when we say we are aware of the body we just mean we are aware of certain sensations, maybe we have a certain idea in mind, and nothing much more than that. now in your experience those sensations are changeful. sometimes you have one, sometimes another. it's not a static thing. and you never get the whole picture, in terms of your body.
we could view the mind in the same way, so many millions and millions of thoughts, but they are usually not cluttering you up all at the same moment.
the experience you call the body keeps changing. the experience you call your mind keeps changing. something knows them. but they don't know that something. something is aware of that changeful experience we call the body. but the body is not aware of it. something is aware of that changeful experience you can call the mind, but the mind is not aware of it. that which is aware all the time, that is shining in you, existing in you, that is your nature. it is present all the time, unlike those changing experiences of your body and mind.
pay attention to everything that is changing for twenty four hours. if you do that, you will become, without bringing in any kind of conceptual knowledge, you will find yourself becoming keenly aware of the awareness or consciousness itself. you are not going to be thinking about it-but it will be obvious to you. obvious as you. you won't feel it separated from yourself, you will be looking from it.
something casually referred to as "i" will be changeless the whole time.