|Some have asked
the question over the years, "I'm in meditation and
I feel this peace, and then as soon as I get up and walk
around I don't feel it anymore, and I want to hold on to
it. I want to keep it. How do I bring this joy and peace
that I feel in meditation into my everyday life?"
lets talk about meditation a bit first. In our way there is not
a point in the distance that one must reach, and so meditation
is not a progressive means to get somewhere else other than where
we are. As Nome has pointed out, you can't start from something
dual and get to something nondual. If there seems to be duality
and a sense of separateness then we only need to clear up that
mistaken notion. There's actually no distance traveled.
||Yet wise seekers
who find themselves yearning for the truth because they have confused
themselves with the physical form, or they are suffering, have turned
to meditation as recommended by their teachers and by the great
traditions. And the amount of people who awakened without any meditation
are small in comparison to those who have used meditation as a tool
to find the truth.
|We sit, we
are still, we look inside ourselves, taking all attention from outer
things like worries, cares, and our own physical form. Sometimes
we say we "park" the body, because we put no attention
on the body when we meditate. We go IN. And it may take you awhile
to understand what IN is, but IN is profound. Some people think
it's a rejection of "out" but actually we just use it
to understand what's real. We finally come to a realization that
there is absolutely no division between in and out, no one to have
such a thought and no division between anything. We come to the
utter and complete joy and peace of pure existence, pure being.
And it's not like we come to it - it's more like uncovering it.
Uncovering what's real and just taking away the false assumptions.
||So the way
we do this is (as recommended by Ramana Maharshi and taught to me
by my own teacher Nome -- the wonderful Nome who's taught for 25
years with the greatest humility and brightness. They recommended,
and I assure you this is the most direct way), look into your own
existence. We use the simple words, "who am I?" The words
don't matter. It's the fierce intention
of looking to see who you REALLY are.
|Don't you think this is
a good endeavor in this lifetime? To know who you are before you
start living it and running off with all kinds of assumptions of
who you are? Trying to fulfill expectations of a world who's telling
you who you are? Trying to squeeze out some joy and peace through
making an identity out of a human form? !!!!! This is a pursuit
that affords no joy and always ends in death of the assumed entity.
So, as good as it can be, it's not fulfilling. And it's certainly
not eternally fulfilling.
|So find a
way to park this physical form for a while. Its wise to do this
every day as many times a day as you can. I'll tell you after a
while this meditation thing will get to be the most enjoyable thing
you do! Because finding yourself is utterly, utterly blissful. So
the more you do this, even though it seems like intention and effort
at first, the more pleasure you will enjoy. It will turn out to
be far superior to any other pleasure you have known in your lifetime.
So park the form and delve into your own existence. I can't tell
you what this means. You have got to find it out for yourself. I
can point, I can urge, but you must do it yourself. I can't give
you yourself. Only you can find yourself.
|If you want this
eternal bliss, if you want this enlightenment that sages have
spoken of for eons, give it your intention repeatedly: "Who
am I?" Look directly at what you find. "Who am I?"
Is it a body? Go deeper. Sometimes people will find themselves
locked into some part of the body. They ask "who am I?"
and they keep feeling it is something somewhere in their head
or their heart or asjna chakra or some other part. Go deeper.
This consideration goes subtler and subtler. There will be
many forms of who you think you are. That is what we want
to get rid of. So sometimes I hear people get locked in their
body for years. "Who am I"? always ends up being
the same answer -- but who sees that? Who is aware of that
"I"? There cannot be two "I"s here. There's
only one existence. You yourself are only one -- there are
not many of you. So if something sees an "I", who
is that something or someone?
is aware of the "I" is more yourself and vaster than the
"I" that is seen. So delve in this manner and you will
find that your experience of yourself becomes freer and vaster and
more joyful and blissful the more you distinguish between the Real
and the unreal. Anything objective is not the Reality.
Everything objective is fleeting and illusory. So if you're thorough
with this consideration, you'll come to perfect peace -- everlasting
peace, and will never ever mistake yourself for a form again. And
even on day-one, the smallest concept you give up about yourself
will afford you great freedom.
you come to that place of peace -- maybe not to its fullest extent,
but it seems like great peace compared to your ordinary agitated
life and you want to hold onto it. Who wants to hold onto it? If
that "you" dissolves, that wanting to hold onto it dissolves.
Who is going to hold onto your Existence? Why would you need to
hold onto what you are? How could you lose that?
|There is an illusory assumption
that the body that gets up out of meditation is more real than the
meditation was! This is absurd! Your body is an object of awareness.
In meditation we fall into deeper and deeper into pure Awareness.
The Awareness is Real. The objects are what is unreal.
So what gets up and walks around after meditation is not
a problem, yet it's not the full Reality. Let's say
in meditation you come to a vast empty space. It's free, it's blissful
doesn't seem objective -- it seems like yourself. Your eyes are
closed and you're feeling full and the bell rings! (laughter) You
open your eyes. Now has that opening of your eyes changed anything?
Has the opening of eyes and the seeing of objects changed anything
in that vast blissful experience?
||For some people
-- that's it! That's the end of the peace. The experience is gone.
Now they are in the world, the world is real and they get up and
go about their suffering life. But actually, can these eyelids have
that much power to totally destroy your peaceful meditation? This
thin little piece of skin? It's absurd! Open-close-open-close, there's
no change in the consciousness. The body-mind moves and gets up,
has it changed anything? Does that movement of a form in pure consciences
actually have the power to destroy or limit that peace? NO!
The problem is that all of a sudden people come back to assuming
they are a limited form in the perfect space of pure consciousness.
You don't need to have that assumption.
|The body will do
what it does. There's actually no one inside the body controlling
the body. There's no separate entity doing anything. The body
gets up, the body moves, YOU still remain at peace, as free
as you are without any identification with any form. So it's
not a matter of holding on to that peace. It's more a matter
of not taking on assumptions. Don't put on those clothes of
recommendation is, don't get up out of meditation ever! (laughter)
Enjoy this natural innate freedom that is your Self. It has no
boundaries or limitations what so ever. Do you feel it? Do you
know it? (bell rings)